Tuesday, August 29, 2006
hmm..every1 not feeling well..so end up not gg out wif hwee they all le..zzz..den msg him..he say meet at my place lo..sigh..wonder wat shld i eat for lunch. lol.. mayb lata den decide or wat ba.. ya..
hmm..here's some note 2myself:
1. dun add whip cream in starbuck drinks, will destroy e taste of e drink. *as in cant reali taste the flavour*
2. going out can juz find a place 2 chill..sit down n chat is nice..rather den always walkin ard n chat..leg tired..lol.
3. leave all problems at hm went gg out..feels great. lol.
4. shld share e food when dining at TCC *lol..
5. starbucks is a great place 2 chill too.
6. shld try new tings n experiment wif it..*hmm..but wat ting tings are there for me 2 experience? lol..
yeap..cant tink of anyting else..lol..hmm..was bored n went 2 singaporeidol.com to surf ard..wah..i decided 1 ting..im not gonna anti joakim anymore..im juz gonna support dun wanna comment..zzz..n when some1 i dun reali fancy get kick out im not gonna say anyting le! im wrong..im sorry..reali la..im not in their shoes so hu m i 2 comment rite not?! lol..so i'll juz let joakim do his ting..n b happy tt hady n jonathan is still in..^^ n believe joakim does his best nar. he mayb not b e best singer but ya..he's tryin..
wow..not ez being a celebrity..lol..its already not ez being human..n when a celebrity is not 1 tt u like..he/she gets hell fr e public huh? haix..life is full of "surprises" zzz.. some are lucky some..well..
pretty fan rite now..lol..haix..but i dun wanna tink anymore le..brain cells are dyin off man. zzz. argh..~~!!
thinking of you @ 11:59 AM
Monday, August 28, 2006
2day went out wif my cousin vincent..lol..was nice n different experience nar..lol..not a bad kinda life..but need 2 b rich..lol..went to tcc eat..lol..i open e menu..wah..was worried i dun have enough money 2 pay..lol..den juz order lo..yeap..den aft tt e bill came den i asked if he wan pay den i pay him back or wat..cos i oso dun noe how much 2 pay ma..lol..den he juz say anyting den end up he paid..lol..i ask muz pay him back how much he say no need la..he treat me..wah..such a good guy huh..lol..his future gf sure veri bliss..lol..but hope his future gf will treasure him oso nar..yeap..
vinc kor ar..sometimes let e girl pay oso wor..lol..den can see if she reali care for u..hehe..i believe in sharin de..cannot always e guy pay oso..hehe..yeapyeap..
lol..den went 2 watch "the break up" lol..nice..funny..lol..movie fin was walkin 2 mrt station le but last min didnt feel like gg back..den went starbucks at PS..lol..yeap..he treat me drink again..lol..thx.. ^^ wan gave him money he juz walk away n order..zzz..make me feel bad..lol..but 2nd outin dutch hor..lol..
e movie..jen aniston told her bf exactly wat i wanna tell him sia..lol..haix..feelin fan rite now..lol..vinc asked if i was worryin abt sth juz now..lol..was not la..but came hm suddenly tot rubbish..lol..zzz..argh..!!! i reali feel tt we are driftin man..reali..is it cos of me?! wat i tink? zzz..
ooh..highlighted my hair yest..lol..i tink it looks not bad..dad oso said so..hehe..yeap. thx uncle sebastian (the hairstylist)..^^ hope baby see le will like it..^^ tml meetin hwee faz bee ting dun noe alex gg not..asked baby along..hope he gg..lol..den mayb my mind wun so ruan. haix....
thinking of you @ 9:42 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
OMG..!! im bored..!! haix..reali bored leh..howhowhow?! hmm..mum asked me to fold clothes n iron..zzz a bit lz n no mood 2 do housework now..lol..mayb lata..yeap
BoiiBoii got food poisonin..=( hope he's ok..yeap..hope he went 2 see e doc too. i miss him man..he called dis mornin den i realised how much i've miss him..!!! lol..miss his hugs, his craps n his company..lol..
still waitin for dad 2 bring hm our food. lol..nvm..he muz b bz..yeap..haha..he went wif vinc kor's parents, abby's parents n xiao di's dad 2 take care of ah gong's ashes ba..yeap..fr mornin till now..lol..dun noe if they eatin lunch now not..lol..if they are means my food comin soon oso ba..lol..
been smsin wif vinc kor since wed..lol..crappin a lot oso..haha..he say he's bored in camp now..lol..well..im bored at hm..haha..mayb shall go ms a while or fold clothes? lol..haix im soooooo bored..
ooh..!! went frdster juz now..lol..add testi for old frdx..tml or next wk shall cont 2 give testi again..lol..wah realised a lot of my frdx changed..lol..changed as in more wild..haha..good for time hehe..at least they're happy wor..hehe..yeapyeap..more pretty oso..wah..hope we'll always keep in touch even when we are in e workin world..^^ yeap..
thinking of you @ 1:40 PM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
i'm back..!! past few days was at ah gong's funeral.. sigh.. at first i tink i was weird la..i didnt felt a ting when i heard e news..but nearing e place i felt tears wanna come out..but i held back..haix.. heard he accepted Christ at his last breath..so i believe he is now in e House of GOD..
eternal rest grant unto him, Oh Lord, and may perpetual light shine upon him. May he rest in peace. Let the Lord take away his pain, may he be free from all sufferings.
i believe ah gong was suffering ba..in was in pain..but i tink he didnt wanna trouble ppl. no matter wat.. he always tried to do tings himself. my onli regret was not able to see him 1 last time during his last stay at e hospital. sigh..but i tink he held on so tt he could see my eldest cousin 1 last time. cos my eldest cousin went UK to study..yeap..at least now ah gong is saved n is in e Hands of GOD ba.. hope my ah ma will b ok. it was weird seeing her so quiet at e funeral. so weird. heard fr dad n abby tt she said this in teochew when they carried in ah gong, "i dun scold you le. i cannot quarrel wif u oso". haix. though they often quarrel but i always believed that they still love each other in their own diff way. yeap. so ah ma muz b so hurt to hear e new esp was 5+ am in e mornin.. haix.. heard her reaction was, "huh..like tt leave le ar? nv inform" weird reaction nar..how she expect ah gong to inform tt he is dyin? but guess she was shocked inside ba..ya..
e funeral..hmm..1st day was pretty bored there..nv talk much..lol..mayb played a lil wif wei yi n aaron..n mayb xiao di..but aiya still bored..lol..2nd day was a bit beta..crapped a lot of vincent korkor..lol..chat a lil wif abby jie..lulu jie..n desmond korkor..lol..but talked more to vincent korkor la..mayb cos our age gap closer..lol..ya..wah learnt a bit more abt each of them. lol..anyway abby's bf n his fam came oso..lol..heard they gettin married in 3yrs. wah..seem long 2 me lol..tot they'll get married soon le..haha..
anyway cant wait for e next cousin meeting..which will b in a loooooong time ba. sigh cos our fam rarely meet on cny. but even cny oso sometimes dun get to meet de. haix. mayb shall meet wif vin kor to catch a movie of sth. lol..hope they will let me go..!! yeapyeap
i miss baby sia. haix. i dun noe 2days+ feel so distant fr him suddenly sia. haix. dun noe nar. i've a bad feeling..but like vin kor said lo..see how it goes..even wif my fam prob..hai..
thinking of you @ 6:37 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
<> by Cecelia Ahern
tt is a great book man..!! though its fiction but it shows e life of a 5yr old to teenage yrs..to makin lots of mistakes..till 50.. shows the process of growin up..i dun mean literally..i mean emotionally growing up. Fr getting hurt..till getting preg n look aft own children lookin aft children..e bond of a supportive fam..e bond of siblings..e frdship bond..rs-bond.. husband-n-wife bond..lol..overall its one of e best books i've read nar..!! every1 shld go read.. yeapyeap..shows e strongest bond of a pair of best frdx..n tt u can have more den 1 best frd. if i can find e book in bookstore i wanna buy it..!! lol.. here's e back of e book...
Since childhood, Rosie and Alex have struck
by each other through thick and thin. But they're suddenly separated when Alex
and his family move from Diblin to America. Rosie is lost withouth him. Then,
just as she is about to join Alex in Boston, she gets life-changing news -- news
that will keep her at home in Ireland.
Their magical connection remains but can their
friendship survive the years and mile -- as well as new relationships? And
always ar the back of Rosie's mind is whether they were meant to be more than
just good friends all along. Misunderstandings, circumstances and sheer bad luck
have kept them apart -- until now. But will the gamble everyting -- including
their friendship -- on true love? And what twists and surprises does fate have
in store for them this time..?
the book is really 10star/5star material..in fact is more..!! ungradable..!! cos its 2 great..lol..ok guess u all will tink im exaggerating..but lol..its reali nice la..i read le cannot stop till i was too tired den slpt de..lol..e book oso show every part of life..there are decisions to make even though sometimes it hurts..but sometimes its e right choice. n u'll noe it 1 day. yeap..!! here's a quote of my frd.."in order to get sth..u'll have to lose sth or some1..." so true...
when i was reading the book..i always wonder how come parents in Sg are so different? lol..but they all have 1 ting in common ba..they care for their child..n they are humans ba..there are oso tings which they cannot accept..but yet in e story the parents are so great..!! lol..yeapyeap..but they are onli fictional ppl..lol..oh well..i shan't get to tt part..lol..but im sure glad i still have my parents..~! though im always complainin..yeapyeap..i love my parents..!!
i love him too. haix.. but our love is strong but do we have e fate n destiny..? sigh..
of cos..i'll nv forget my dearest frdx..!! esp those who been there wif me when im down..ppl like..baby, audrey, yen ching, mayu, my dearest sister amelia, peiyi, xiao wei, terence, poh eng, hwee hua, serene, xin, adam, cher lilian. my frdx.. ok..some have drifted but they helped by listening 2 me complain..lol..n tt's enough..though we're not best frdx..n some even dun talk le..n was upset wif..but ya..its ok..cos they were there when i needed some1.. ^^ i love all my frdx...!!! of cos include those not mention..love them all..!! oh..yest made a new frd in maple..lol..jaycelyngirl..thx for listenin 2 me crap yest..lol..all e best wif bf n a lvls..!! hehe..
thinking of you @ 12:50 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
yay..!! found a skin i like a lot..lol..wah..do till head pain le wor..lol..oh well..i still love it..hehe..
haha..i've got nth 2 update le..zzz..life is so boring..lol..
thinking of you @ 2:19 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
wah..12th aug went out wif yi mei, baby, n 3 of yi mei frdx..ohh n ah liang came oso..haha..was talkin abt his cat, den baby called ah liang but no reply..lol..lata he called baby back..den end up he say wan come meet baby..lol..total 7 of us..lol..not bad..more ppl e more merry..yeap..
met yi mei at amk at abt 3..lol..but den last min baby changed say meet 3.30 aiyo..den we 2 mei nu waiting for tt prince..haix..haha..but ok la..talked a lot wif mei..lol..den e finally came le..den went city hall..den had 2 wait for yi frds..wah all e guys tt day so ungentleman de..lol..all make ladies wait..lol..except 1 of yi frdx n ah liang nar..lol..cos yi frd went there le..yeap..den ah liang is last min join in de..lol..meet her frd le den walk 2 suntec cos they wanted go e WCG watch e dota thingy ma..i a bit out of place nar..cos i dun noe wat was gg on..lol juz now tt end up Sg lost..lol..but heard at e finals Sg won leh..haha..not bad..yeap..
baby n ah liang so crappy sia..haha..den they walk so fast..haix..den yi mei n her frdx behind i so worried will lose them..den i keep saying they walk so fast..den they both say same ting..aiyo..wif them can die of laughter ar..lol..den ah liang me n baby all j walked across.. wah lao..they veri daring sia..aiyo..buay tan han them..den yi they all dun noe..aiyo..den had 2 call them n wait for them lo..yeapyeap..den faster rushed 2 the fireworks liao..but den 2guys walk so slow end up losing them in e crowd..den ah liang walk so fast..end up onli he had e best view of e fireworks..omg lo..jealous sia..7 of us but left me baby yi mei n her frd watch 2gether.. haix..but our view blocked by the trees..!! haix..sad..but nvm..next yr lo..lol..den lata fin le all of them bz finding ppl..lol..baby kept called ah liang..lol..1st time see him so anxious 2 reach his frd. lol..cant help his best frd ma..lol..though dun contact much nowadays but yeap..lol..
baby n ah liang kept talkin abt their sec sch days..wah i left a bit out..lol.. but lucky still got crap a bit wif them la..n understand baby wan 2 pei him more..lol..cos they rarely can meet n go out ma..though they best frdx but can see their interest veri diff..lol..so let him pei ah liang lo..haha..but i feel so trapped btwn them nar..lol..dun noe y everytime i in e middle den ppl will squeeze in..haha.. XD
the fireworks so nice sia..!! so colourful n pretty..some looked like shooting stars wah..some 1 colour but when explod become so colourful..some was so golden..against the black sky, it was so beautiful..i oso dun noe how 2 described wat i felt..blissed 2 watch it wif baby nar though it was so hot n humid in there..lol..aiyo..den heard ppl woo-ing..i oso made noise lo..lol..den baby gave me tt look..haha..but nvm nar..i happy can le..hehe.. XD den wanted go back..wah gg into e mrt is so packed sia..they were deciding if shld go walk walk 1st den go back or wat..lol..den wait n wait..end up juz squeeze into e station nar..lol..but ah liang went diff way cos he say he lz take mrt..lol..but i tink he end up nv go back so early leh..lol.. den baby n e guys say reach hm go dota..lol..den i was tinkin there goes my chance 2 chat on fone wif him again..lol..but i let him b ba..since he go pei wo le..lol..yeapyeap..
they dun noe i watched it wif dis group of ppl ba..haix..i told them i go wif junior. haix..i lied again..so sick n tired of it..but if i say e truth i wld have lost tt chance 2 watch the fireworks..haix..i tink if i go out wif my girl frdx they wun mind me gg back a lil later de..if i say go out wif him..wah..dun say go back at 6..they wun even let me go lo..but sometimes i reali reali wanna tell e truth..but e fear of not gg reali hurts..xw jie said tt 1 day i still have 2 b honest. i noe. i reali hope tt day will come soon..i guess baby oso tired of hiding le..me too. veri tirin.. haix mayb they noe tt i still got see him..mayb they noe tt im lyin..but...haix...
anyway tt was 12aug entry..lol..didnt update yest oso cos watchin tv..lol..yeap.. 2day is 14 aug le..n yeap is our anni..!! lol..wanted ask him come over but den he end sch late so forget it lo..yeapyeap..i miss him. nvm hope dis wk can see him soon..lol.. ohh..wed gg shoppin wif pe. haven tell parents yet..lol..another headache..haix.. tml shall decide where 2 shop wif pe ba..yeap..
hols start..i oso muz reali start my "make over" le..lol..muz watch wat i eat. n start exercising..n drink more water for my face..lol..yeap.. wah..i've written such a long entry le..lol..ok shall stop here n play some games..hehe.. ciao..!!
happy 42 mths BoiiBoii..!! i love you always..
thinking of you @ 12:39 PM
Friday, August 11, 2006
woohoo~~!! the battle is done..but still dun noe hu won..haha..i tink dis sem i sure get all c or d nia..haix..there goes my GPA..sure drop again..!! i wanna cry le man..oh well..results out on e 13th sept.!! hope hope n pray..!! but ya..i noe i did wat i cld le..mayb not e best but well..its over. =) hmm.. HOLIDAYS HAVE OFFICIALLY STARTED..!! hehe..guess im gonna slack at hm most of e time..oh well..free shall ask frdx out..or start makin small cards for frdx..hehe..yeap yeap..
leg hurting sia..lol..dun noe how come pain oso..mayb is muscle..cos is internal pain. lol. oh well.. hope it gets beta soon..i dun wanna go die da yi sheng..lol..yeap yeap..
yi mei mei say dis wk got fireworks display at esp..lol..actually i wanted 2 go..but den she oso dun noe wat time start den i scared till 2 late parents dun let..plus..i reali reali reali wanna tell parents i gg wif him..but den..i say le..is 100% cannot de..haix..
yest sis told dad tt her frd wanna lend her tama till mon..den dad say dun la..lata she make spoil or wat..den ma fan..haix..make me feel upset oso..i noe sis sad de nar..cos of e disappointment..u noe..i dun like 2 lie 2 them..i reali hate it..i reali wanna have open chat wif them abt everyting..!! but everytime i say sth..they will talk it so serious..like i say e guy in tv shuai..den mother will say wat e features of face blah blah blah say not good or wat..haix..i cant stand it ar..!! den when say e truth..reali plan hao le..den if they dun let i veri sianx de.. haix. if i say wif frdx..they sure let me go? say wif him?! haix..fed up nar..!!
haix..baby still so patient wif me already veri good le..y cant they juz let me go?! argh..!! if they dun let me go ..wat shld i do?! juz go? den go hm get scolded ma? haix..but everytime in a arguement i sure lose de..i always run out of tings 2 argue back de..haix..
2day suppose 2 b a happy day..shant tink abt all dis le..haix..but i reali wanna go e fireworks wif him..!! so romantic lo..haix..oh well..i reali miss him
i rather b totally alone n feel lonely,
then 2 b surronded by a sea of ppl n feel tt im all alone..
thinking of you @ 3:14 PM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
juz saw ah yen's blog..hope she is ok.. yeaps.. i didnt noe u went thru tt stage of hurt, pain, cries and thoughts.. sorry.. i was not there..well..sayin sorry dun help..i didnt noe.. hope your frdx n you are by ur side now. =)
i guess when one is sad e world seem 2 fall on them even though subconciously they noe they are other frdx n family. but deep inside there's still loneliness. haix.. i dun even wanna tink anymore..tired of everyting..
baby ar..we seem to b veri far away..haix.. yest finally got e chance 2 chat wif u on fone.. since 3wks 2days have passed. haix.. i noe i veri veri unreasonable sometimes.. i juz upset n alone.. i hate tt feeling..! haix..nvm..thx for pei wo yest.. i love you..!
thinking of you @ 2:58 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
wahahahaha..yest was so slack when 2day got paper..haix..but at nite i did study nar..i was confident i could do most..hu noes..!! e topic i tot ez came out so chim..!! haix..actually i had a lot of time 2 do de..but den i dun noe how 2 do..!! 35marks gone..!! haix..plus in front got like 10marks gone le? how 2 get my A/B sia? haix..oh well..hope there's moderation ba.. haix~~~
yest mornin woke up late..suppose meet ah yen darling at 9.30..den i wake up.. i was like shit shit shit wat time..?! lol..den saw was 9.05..!! i was oh man..!! late le..den i msg ah yen say i go now so late le..dun meet her le.? lol..den she wanted ask me meet 2day..but got exam ma..den i ask her meet 10 can ma..so end up meet her at sjc outside nor..hehe..yeap..den wanna go in muz go thru e security guard ma..den me n ah yen was like dun noe wat 2 tell e guard oso..lol..lucky got ah yen's old neighbour help us..lol..if not die man..yeap..den walk walk lo chat wif mrs tan..!! lol..she slimed down..!! wahahahaha..n more pretty le..hehe..den chatted wif ms yeo oso..haha..den ms irish teh..lol..ooh..chatted wif mrs chan oso..haha..okok la..miss sec sch but now go back so weird nar..not a lot of ppl we noe liao..haha..recognise some though..haha.. but nice gg back 2 old sch..lol..yeap..den met ester n shirley..our choir mates..!! lol..den chat lo erm more of ah yen chat nar..lol..cos they more close ma..yeap..hehe
their recess over den we ate fishball noddle..!! lol..e drink stall n noddle stall aunty still rem us..!! so nice..!! lol..miss them oso leh..i tink they veri nice ppl..hehe..yeap..
e rice stall aunty change le..wah..she oso quite nice de..now e aunty dun noe..lol..most of e chers still there..lol..was walkin den saw them..haha..wanted talk 2 pan lao shi de..but she bz teachin didnt see us..so suan le nor..lol..yeap..but got some chers left le..heard ms sek married..!! lol.. nice news..wonder is it married 2 tt time e pe cher n our sch..lol..mr chan? haha..cant rem his name..cos tt time i tink ah yen told me..she saw them tgt holdin hands..lol..oh..juz remembered nv see mr chan e sci cher..!! wonder if he is ok..cos tt time heard he nearly died..wah..he is a veri good cher man..veri good man..yeap..hope he is ok ba..yups..oooh..!! yest saw mrs elan oso waved 2 her..haha..she oso another good cher ba..she helped me a lot wif amaths..yeap..if not i sure die de..hmm..lily tan retired le..i heard..wah..actually she is not bad a cher..juz tt she is naggy? lol..yeap..her art is nice too..!! hehe..heard she was ms sg b4 sia..lol..hmm..ms angelina tan is preg..!! lol..i forgot her married name..sorry..but she still look as fierce as ever..mayb she took over ms sek job..lol..yeap..ms chow still look e same..n is still e same..saw her..she saw us oso dun noe how 2 react..i a bit smiled..but muz b dun look like cos she look so fierce..den i looked at ah yen..den look back she look down le..n walkin 2 e bball court..lol..oh well..
wah..i reali miss my life in sjc..though was always complain cant wait 2 get out haha..but got feelings there le..yeap..oh well..den aft eating we left le..ah yen went back sch..lol den i went hm..need 2 study for exam ma..but got hm was lz sia..aiyo..den aft tt went online.. lol den chat wif don..den he say sian wanna go hg pt arcade ask me pei him..lol..den i was ok lo.. anyting..his bday ma..lol..so pei him a while lo..he play racin..wah..he drive veri fast la..haha.. den aft tt go ntuc wanted buy titbits..or drink..but end up go cheers buy..haha..he treat me vitasoy sia..lol..not bad..lol..den went sit at e food court there..den i took out finance wanted study but end up talkin..haha..like he expected..lol..not bad la..still can manage 2 chat ba..yeap yeap.. not like tt time surprise meet..haha..i was reali ps nar tt time..yeap..
baby 2day came over..lol..i didnt treat him cold ba..but den aft a while i got depressed again? haix..oh well..dun noe..yest he not feeling well..hope he's ok ba..yeap..i miss him man..haix..i dun noe wat i;ve been feeling lately..lol..oh well..aft exams n worry abt my life ba..hehe..yeap yeap..
baby..will u reali always b by my side? or our future is so unsettled? haix
but no matter wat..i wan u to noe, i reali do love you..
thinking of you @ 6:02 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
honestly..i've nth 2 update..lol.. 2day went hwee house..lol..quite fun nar..hehe..studied..talked.. lol.. watch tv..ooh..her dad cook for us..!! lol..not bad la e cookin..beta den mine..lol..i ate fin e veg sia..lol..but a bit salty..but i still tink its nice leh..hehe.. actually alex wanted 2 go de..lol..but den he wantd leave..her dad say cook fin le..eat le den go lo..haha..den he stayed..lol..yeap..he eat quite fast sia..but i tink is cos he rushin 2 go off..lol..den he go lo..den i cont do e pyp..lol..bot bad la..though nv do tt much..but at least i learnt how 2 do somethings..hehe..yeap..stayed till 6.. cos since already nearin 5..den dad called..den he ask wan wait for him not..den i anyting lo..lol..den 6 leave e house..tink her dad was preparin cook my share le..lol..lucky she told her dad le..yeapyeap..thx uncle.. =)
tml date wif ah yen cancelled le..she got test so nv go..lol..nvm..jia you for test..!! hehe..see when free can go back lo..hehe..yeapyeap..tc girl..huggs..!!
feeling down lately..hope it wun affect my exams..!!
thinking of you @ 9:30 PM
